I hate it when I don't get what I want

So, I went to the nurse prac, and I really liked her. She gave me some go options. Told me some things I did not know. I AM NOT someone who looks up medical info on the Internet. There isn't anything wrong with it, I just don't. At the end of our meeting it was decided that I would meet one of "her" surgeons, even though I was set on the KU doc. I really liked Dr P. He is an iowan, who likes the hawk eyes, but not the cyclones. So I am having my C4,5,6 fused on Monday in St. Joe. So prayers please. I know God will take care of me.

My second opinion first

Today I go to the doctor, well a nurse prac in a nuerosurgeon's office for my second opinion. No I have not had a first opinion, but I will be seeing the nuerosurgeon that I have researched and selected in May. So I may have some news. I know they will ask me to do some things I am not willing to do. I am not willing to STOP living. I am a mom I cannot just stop doing everything, really I can't think of anything I can give up. That is just the way it is.